hello, why am I even fucking here?

on 2026-07-01

Bérurier Noir performing live in France, 1987 Bérurier Noir, live, 1987. Source: DIY Conspiracy — "The French Punk Scene"

After so long watching the internet (or hey the world) go completely to shit, at some point a person has to say "Hey this might be enough", I think most of us are feeling this way, it's just our response has been apathy. That cold dead feeling you get doomscrolling and not really thinking about it. I've held that feeling long enough and fuck if it isn't wearying after a while.

So, I've been watching a lot of struthless lately and he has a few pretty compelling points.

  • Big Tech makes money when you're fucking miserable. Zuck is literally going to sell you loners AI girlfriends because you have 3 friends and not the "optimal" 15-20 or so.
  • Small changes add up.
  • One minute not on your phone making something is one minute giving your brain over to data collecting scum. So make something instead!

Actually, don't waste your time here, just watch struthless. And yes, it's a youtube link, I'm not letting perfection be the enemy of good here.

So this is my small change. Scream into the void out here. Do stupid shit and see what sticks if anything.

I genuinely feel like things have gotten so bad, that the only sane viewpoint is literal anarchy and to be as extremely anti-establishment as possible. Climate change, wealth inequality, political extremism, they are all in death spirals. And I mean specifically they are bad and getting worse faster and faster.

Wrestling back our minds, our time and our autonomy is the only way I see a path out of this, which might mean less convenience, more anarchy. Clearly governments are in step with Big Tech, so telling them to fuck off regularly seems our only choice anymore.

We are in a period of managed decline as far as I can tell, like a hospice, but the fucking administrators can't even keep the leaks at bay so piss is just falling all over us.

Who knows what the fuck to expect here, but it'll never be AI-bullshit. You're going to have to suffer my shitty grammar and spelling.